Balmung Of Azure Sky

again i sit here
alone in my dungeon
passing it all by
watching and waiting
as time goes on
the trickle of the pipes
the creaking of the chair
it all moves past me
the faint glow of light
the clicking as i type
its all so trivial


you people dont know
what makes us tick
you people cant know
what makes me tick
you people wont know
what makes you tick


Earth winds up
ready to let go
the moon gets faster
just to keep the pace
society passes all its chances
our lives go on and on
the meaningless cycle
it keeps us all trapped
i want to be free
to do as i please
to break the chains of life
its all so trivial


you people dont know
what makes us tick
you people cant know
what makes me tick
you people wont know
what makes you tick


you people dont know
what makes us tick
you people cant know
what makes us tick
you people wont know
what makes you tick
its all so trivial
let it take hold
and set you free....

today was actually not all that bad, ms dworkin is going to make me go postal one of these days though, and our sub in history was such a bitch, but besides that it was alright, been talkin to my new buddy and shes really cool, we got lots in common but we have our differences, hey it would be kinda creepy if we didnt, perhaps maybe i might pick up somethin for her, but who knows what the future may hold, i mean hell ive liked the same person for the past what 2 months? i think.... its time for a change, besides i didnt have a snowballs chance in hell with her, though thats not that much different from like any other girl ive liked but oh well, but i really think once i get to know my new friend better i will get somethin for her, its a good thing for me to have a friend i can relate so much to who i could actually see practically anytime i want... so wow that was long but im done now

disappear outta here
it was time to pay my dues
never guessed that youd be dressed
in my clothes and in my shoes
you couldnt wait to move right in
if i were you id be concerned
in your way your gonna win
i betcha didnt count on my return

thought you were so tough
you had it all under control
now with nothing saving you
im gonna take back what you stole
give it up cus now im back

on my own all alone
this aint how the story ends
now i see those close to me
they were just fairly good friends

you suckered everyone in sight
with promises that fooled them all
you may be top dog tonight
the bigger they come the harder they fall

thought you were so tough
you had it all under control
now with nothing saving you
im gonna take back what you stole
give it up cus now im back

thought you were so tough
you had it all under control
now with nothing saving you
im take back what you stole
give it up cus now im back

man i love that song, uhhh boring day, a little eventful but not really, ive been thinkin and im just stumped, but oh well im always confused in the head

heres my story i wrote

( my story )

in deleons class and it sucks big time, i hate this damn class its so annoying, and i saw just saw a bird commit suicide out from the window, i need to try and see dayna this week cus i really miss her and wanna see her, perhaps a movie? well thats all for now and IM STILL SICK GRRRRR

I HATE BEING SICK!!!!!!!!!!!

stayed home sick today, so i had to do a little work around the house.... uh lets see, im gettin really mad at corie lately cus shes just bein an idiot..... ummmmmmm thats pretty much all i got, oh yeah dayna i love u so much it aint even funny and il stick by u through it all no matter what and i aint just sayin this, i mean it whole heartidly cus thats what true friends are for so if u ever need me for somethin come find me il take care of ya

i wish i had a light to guide me......

wrote this today off the top of my head.....

everything i once held dear
is slipping away from me
all the things i used to hear
are fading from my mind
all the things i used to see
are leaving my line of sight
u people are pushing me away
keeping me all alone
i try and try
as much as i can
to take it all back
but nothing ever works
its not ur fault
im trapped this way
its all because of me
so go off now
let me stay
inside my tiny cell
this world is gone
my hopes are dashed
i bare no remorse

been busy lately, no sleep in 4 days kinda messes with ur mind lol u might know that from last night if u were there not many of u but yeah i was a little messed up... like i was walking out of gelato roma with a pizza and sean was like u look like a pizza man and im just like dum dum da dum! it was so great.... saw the grudge last night, it was sooooooooooo horrible but i got to hang with 2/3 of the posse and i got to see dayna, which was cool since i rarely get to see her... and my games havent come yet so im pissed, but overall today was cool

eh same ol same ol, nothin else sides that

i dont know what to do anymore.....

last night was sooooo much fun... and it really showed how fucked up my mind is, the lack of food is losing my mind!!! u must become one of the forgutten.... lol OOOooh!... so lets see.... other then that nothing is really going on, except im now EXTREMELY confused about something so im all messed up now... yay! day 2 tomorrow, that means i got swim class! lol one of the people in my seminar class is actually FAILING SEMINAR how the hell is that even possible.... oh yeah i got my progress report (which i had to rush home and hide last night so my mom wouldnt see it) but its actually not that bad, ive got like a d and thats only for mrs simone cus she has no idea what the hell she is doing.... other then that im actually doing GOOD for once... and uhh thats all i got


Jacoombas- It'll be sweet!!!

nothing new lately, i have begun to develop a new outlook on life though, the way i see it people should spend their lifes doing the thing they do best or enjoy, for me those two things fall into the category of listening to and sometimes helping my friends with their problems, so if ur a friend of mine and ive helped u with a problem uve had, leave me one cus i wanna see if im a big enough help to keep on going with that

eh nothing i new has been going on lately, i went and saw wicker park yesterday which has to be THE most confusing movie ive ever seen in my life... uh lets see here, ive been talking to dayna a lot lately and she is quite the interesting person, we have lots in common, and in the ways i dont get with most people, and ummm i found a peanut! ive always wanted one of them lol well thats all, laterz

old max is baaaaak, and hes even more insane then ever before!!!!! ;)

i wish to disappear
to vanish without a trace
to walk away from time
to leave this evil place
to escape from the pain
of my former life
i have no regrets
i do not wish to stay
so please let me turn around and run
and finally get away

becca that hug earlier felt soooooooo good.... i really needed it.... we should do that more often, but not too often, otherwise wed kill it.... but damn i need another one right now, a longer one with all thats going on... but oh well just my luck.....

friday was sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo awesome... i hung out with ashley and saw little black book (which i hate to admit was quite good) lol so many funny moments, wtf why are they turning the lights back on? lol, awwww but i wanted the duck! soo much fun, umm yesterday had to help my grandmother move which was a pain in the ass but oh well it had to be done.... and thats bout it

i just hope the one thing i want, i can do.....